Alone in the Dark

Alone in the dark
A truly comfortable place
Far from anything
That could disturb me,
Together in the light
A very disturbing place
Near everything
That is sickening me.

When the sun decide it's time to go away
I feel this peaceful moon
So beautiful from afar
Yet ugly from near
Now compare to me
And you'll know that should keep your distances.
Sometimes i sit on the ground
Looking at the stars
Wishing I was so far,
Tears starting to fall down
Making me realize
That it's physical
So it's alright.

I may cry
But don't worry its won't harm me
I may look sad
But hey nothing in this world is perfect
Neither the world nor me
That's why I don't care.

Sitting here I feel so suddenly
This pain in my chest
Grasping it with all my might
Hard enough to left my nails mark,
Standing up I feel so suddenly
The lack of oxygen in my lungs
Trying to catch my breath
Hurting enough to make my tears show up.

Pressing both my heart against my chest
Breathing in pain
All this suffering
Tormenting me
Do I really need to live?