Hellish Heaven

And so I break it out
This sturdy shell
While trying to escape
This hellish heaven,
No matter how much I try
I can't let it go
I can even feel these hands
Around my heart.

Slowly grabbing the way of living
Suddenly showing the nightmares that wont dim
I can feel its presence
Inside what I call my past tense
Playing with my head
I feel like an undead,
But I try to resist
But crash.

And so I break it out
This sturdy shell
While trying to escape
This hellish heaven,
No matter how much I try
I can't let it go
I can even feel these hands
Around my heart.

I feel that this mind isn't my own
I feel like this place isn't what you call a home
I try to forget
And try to forge my soul
Yet, the wound that is binding it to me
Is more than awful
So I try to let it out
While being careful
Yet, this never ending gauze
That is still bleeding
That tingling inside
Is enough to make lie.

And so I break it out
This sturdy shell
While trying to escape
This hellish heaven,
No matter how much I try
I can't let it go
I can even feel these hands
Around my heart.

Slowly but surely
I try to survive yet fail
Fast and insecuretly
I tried to prevail,
Deeper in this pain
I wish I had a friend
Sadly and closing my eyes
I will be fine.

And so I break it out
This sturdy shell
While trying to escape
This hellish heaven,
No matter how much I try
I can't let it go
I can even feel these hands
Around my heart.

No matter how much I try
The demon won't let go
I can even feel my hands
Around my existence.