Scare of hearing the truth
I put my hands on my ears
Wondering when it will stop,
The truth is so bright
So bright that it hurt my eyes
And I wonder how to make it stop.
Sometimes I feel like breaking this shield
And make my thoughts find your ears
But I guess it's not that easy
Sometimes I feel like laughing out loud
Showing you how much I am free
But I guess it's not happening soon.
Thinking back
I wonder when I was truly smiling
Without all those doubts
But I, can't, remember.
Looking over my writings
I wonder who that person is
That is writing so happily
I don't recognize her.
I really don't understand
Why are you so caring?
I really wish to find
This puzzle piece that I lost,
I really don't understand
Why are you so daring?
To step in those dangerous grounds
That even scared me.
I wish, to tell you to stop
Because I don't want to harm you
But, if you truly insist
I'm sorry but I'll have to defend myself.
A step of too much
And you'll be crossing the line
A hand to near
And you'll be repulsive to my eyes
A word to close
And you'll b giving me an overdose,
Of those strange emotions
Of those weird emotions
Mysterious feelings that just surface whenever it want
Dangerous feeling that don't act as I wanted...
This puzzle piece that I lost
Without even remarking it
Is probably what I need to love you
This cracked red eggshell
That represents my heart
Been broken fiercely,
No I don't regret anything
Okay maybe I do
But if I say that
The feelings inside
Will kill me inside.
If I dare to share it
You'll probably break more easily than you think
If I decide to say it
I'll probably turn crazy
If you decide to find it
I'll be living with this guilt
If you dare to ask me
Be prepare as a silence like answer.
I feel like singing out loud but I...
Can't not be so free of the painful event after
Despise me I don't care
The only thing getting hurt is my heart
Don't pity me if you dare
I'll sew back it up by myself
Don't worry about me
If I suddenly shed tear
It won't more than a second
Even though you feel powerless...
Don't try to take...
A step into my darkness...
It's part of who I am
If you take it off I'm nothing,
Don't try to talk some sense...
This thing does not exist...
I feel safer with it
But if you want to try be aware.
Of what could happen after...
But if you want to try I'll be merciless
It's the only thing I can think of.